30/03/2023
If you struggle with your mental health or addiction, you are at war for your life.
The fact that you’re still here means you haven’t lost that war. But we all know that every war is made up of battles.
You don’t get to decide many of the battles you fight. If the battles last days, weeks, months, or years. All you get to decide is what you do when the trumpet calls. Fight or forfeit.
Sometimes you forfeit. You know this delays victory, but it happens. You ask why. You forgive yourself. You come back.
And then you fight. When you fight, you put on muscle, shrewdness, and the confidence that you can do it again. The next battle probably won’t be easier, but you will be stronger, and your weapons will feel more familiar in your hands.
I talk a lot about finding healing. In God, flow state, therapy, creativity, nature, nourishing food, wild medicinal herbs, detoxing from the sludge of news and social media. I believe 100% in the power of these things. Not just because of their scientific proof, but because they’re what humans have used forever to heal. I’ve watched them heal 115+ clients…and me. But healing does not mean that you are forevermore exempt from struggles, or that your demons die out.
But here’s what I know. There will be a day when your war ends. You decide whether it’s because YOU win or the darkness wins. I wrote this when I was deep in a battle last year, put it on my bathroom mirror, and recited it to myself everyday. I choose to believe that my ultimate victory is inevitable, and I believe that yours is too. Keep seeking healing. Never stop fighting.