10/01/2021
Living in the layers- deep thoughts onFriday morning.
“How shall we hold our losses?” That’s one of the most important questions we humans can ask. The answers we come up with can make the difference between sinking into bitterness or despair and becoming a giver of life.
I’m thinking not only about the loss of people we love and things we treasure. Lots of elders lose the capacity to do things that once brought them pleasure and served as sources of personal identity.
In my case, at age 82, it’s unlikely that I'll write another book, speak to another large audience in person, or lead another retreat—activities that helped me find meaning and purpose for more than 50 years. To say nothing of making a living.
So I’m grateful that 45 years ago, I heard someone talk about being “hallowed by our diminishments.” Those words lived on in my mind, and now I’m trying to live into their meaning.
I’d like to think that the deaths of people I love have made me more actively compassionate toward those who suffer. I’d like to think that I can still serve by writing short-form pieces instead of books, or by working with people online instead of onstage or in a retreat circle. And I’m greatly inspired by people I know who can no longer work with their hands, as they did for decades, but are now serving and finding meaning in other modes.
Maybe the most common obstacle to holding our losses well—apart from physical or mental pain—is a failure of imagination about ways to redeem them.
Sadly, some people—people who have options—allow their losses to “HOLLOW” rather than “HALLOW” them. Sometimes they try to fill their inner emptiness with things that do not serve life: substance abuse, hateful ideologies, or servile devotion to corrupt thugs in high office. We’d have a better world if we would help each other become hallowed, not hollowed.
I’ll give the last word(s) to Stanley Kunitz. He wrote this classic poem about aging when he was in his 70s, after suffering the deaths of family members and a few close friends. Kunitz died at age 100, and was hallowed by his diminishments to the end...
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