01/06/2025
Happy New Year! 🎊
I know it’s been a while since we’ve posted anything here. I have good intentions but often find myself not knowing what to share here since Ezra is doing so well most of the time. I say he’s doing well and that’s really in comparison to how he was doing so many years ago. If you’ve been around here since then, you know. If not, scroll back through the posts or photos.
So what’s new? I’ve had some new muscle pains in my back and left arm that started in August. The pain in my back was pretty consistent and debilitating at times. I began physical therapy in October and also began seeing a Chiropractor, both have helped tremendously! The PT originally thought I had tennis elbow but after over a month of physical therapy with only some improvement it was decided that whatever was causing my pain was most likely a result of Gould Syndrome. Over the last 7 years, I’ve had an increase in injuries and muscle pain specifically on my left side. Every person with this disorder has varying symptoms and extremes so I tell myself that I’m lucky to not have anything on the opposite side of the spectrum, but also pain is pain and it can be miserable!
Just before Christmas Ezra went in the hospital for a 23 hour video EEG to check for seizure activity. We haven’t visually seen any seizures since the one he has at the end of the school year last year but his OCD has been worse which tells me he probably needs an increase in his medications.
We haven’t had a follow up clinic visit yet regarding his labs and EEG results but I did get results from the online portal. His EEG showed 3-4 electrographic seizures per hour that were only seen in his sleep arising from the right posterior quadrant (typically right posterior temporal at times right centro-parieta. So my understanding is that these seizures are not the clinical seizures that we would normally see with our eyes but that his brain is aggravated.
We’ve been told by his doctors several times that Ezra has been doing great considering his seizure history, brain surgeries, and having Gould Syndrome. Having an occasional seizure and needing to change or increase medications is probably going to happen. It would be a HUGE answer to our prayers if God healed him and made his brain perfect but I know how bad things can get and for Ezra to have the life he has now is a miracle!!
I had a few days recently where I broke down crying over the life I thought I would have as a Mom and a wife and what may really happen. Ezra turned 14 on January 4th. He’s still too young to know what his adult life will really look like and with Gould Syndrome there’s even more unknowns, but right now we are leaning into the idea that he may never live completely independently. I don’t mean to sound ungrateful or gloomy because I’m so very proud of him, but this is still so hard! I know God will continue to put the right people in our path to help us and Ezra and that gives me a huge peace most of the time but right now I guess I’m just reflecting on and sharing the things I don’t share very often.
Anyway, this was way longer than I intended. I’ll update when we find out more. I hope you all had a beautiful Christmas holiday with whoever you call family. ❤️😘