10/23/2020
Well yesterday I was feeling crazy disappointed in myself because of my workout. I worked core specifically. Recorded 3 exercises thinking I would share, but my energy was reflected in the video so I ended up not sharing. This morning my right hip has a burning sensation. Coming to the conclusion I am glad I didn’t do more.
So what did I learn? First mistake, didn’t eat breakfast.
This goes to mindset. Wanted to lose belly fat and tone. Not unlike many women. Before surgery I felt huge, uncomfortable. Just like I was pregnant. Had to go to the bathroom ten times a night, hard time breathing, in other words, very uncomfortable. Which made physical exercise very challenging. But I did what I could and looked forward to when my workouts could be better. So now here I am. A little over 4 weeks post surgery. Having done everything the dr said, least I think so and closing the chapter on this event, more than ready to get back “in shape.”
But I don’t like how I look. The solution. Lose the belly fat and tone. So whether I knew it or not I was fixated on a mission. (It’s how I tackle problems 🤷🏻♀️)
As a trainer I know one way to trick the body to burn fat is to work out before breakfast. Body is in a fasted state. I was on day 2 of doing this. Day 1 I had an EXCELLENT workout. Super motivated. Not where I was but I got excellent cardio, liked my form, felt like I pushed till I couldn’t. Got home ate a late afternoon, early evening meal, super full. Wasn’t going to eat until the next day, but by 9 pm I HAVE to eat. Crazy hungry. At night I can tell my right foot is going to need to rest and I definitely worked my hind parts. Feeling accomplished.
Day 2. Set on repeating. But so tired. Feel slightly nauseous. But can’t give in. Especially because I ate so late! Shake it off. Once i get there, preworkout will help. But I can feel my right foot more. Dang no running. Ok goal, just work on core. I do various core exercises...but I never get that....energy. I feel crazy crappy. Crazy disappointed. But I know it’s cause of what I did.
So why didn’t I listen to my body? Focusing on the wrong things. I have always had self image issues. But I always told myself to focus on creating healthy habits and activities. I know how important it is to love who you are, accept yourself, not to beat up yourself. I am so sensitive to wanting everyone else to know it really is about self care because they are worth taking care of. And now I find myself needing my own advice more than ever. My value is not found in how I look. Or how hard I work. Or in what I accomplish. I am good enough just as I am. So I am going to eat when I am hungry. I am going to love my belly.
