10/23/2025
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Well this is a blast from the past!!
My wife found this picture of me giving my first talk ever (a poster presentation for the Delaware Psychologist Association in 2015!!). And can I just say that OMG I looked like a BABY!!! And btw I miss that shirt/tie combo.
The point is that we all have to start somewhere. This grad student version of me had no idea what was coming for him; he was just happy that someone wanted to see his research. Now I have a *somewhat* different relationship with public speaking.
Starting something new is hard. You have to deal with being small, and insecure, and under prepared. You have to deal with seeing other people who are much better and more resourced and more experienced than you. You might feel like you're never going to get there and reach your goals.
And that's when most people quit.
But if you keep going, you keep getting better. And if you keep going, more options are available and opportunities will emerge. And while that happens you're leveling up. The time will come when you look at yourself and won't even recognize your work because of how much better you've gotten.
When I talk about my growth as a speaker, I often mention that I have the recording of the very first webinar I ever did in 2017 (for The Pennsylvania Association for Gifted Education (PAGE) . And I sound awful!!!!! I'm stumbling over my words and I'm awkward and I have no sense of timing. It is legitimately hard to watch. No you can't see the video 😅
Thankfully there's a BUT! But you can also see some of the things in that video that made me and continue to make me a good speaker. I have a lot of content knowledge. I care a lot. I'm a good storyteller. I'm funny. There's clearly something there in terms of potential.
So I kept working at it and keep working at it. And now I'm pretty successful! I never would have guessed I'd have gotten this far. But I'm not done growing! Maybe I'll post this again in ten more years when I can't even believe how much further I've gotten. Who knows?
But I know that, no matter what, I'll keep going.