10/09/2023
Some words of wisdom from my sweet friend, Carrie Booker 's page.
**Had to share.. 🙏❤️I remember before I tried drugs (pills, co***ne, m**h, he**in all of it) I hadn’t done anything but smoked a couple times and drank, and I asked someone what it was like. They said “it’s like a nice warm/numb feeling, idk how to explain it really” and they were right, but now if someone were to ever ask me what it’s like, id tell them.. Its like
- spending every single penny you ever had, on drugs.
- going days without eating even though you were starving, but you needed dope more.
- having to lie to every family and friend you had ever had.
- waking up hating yourself from the shame and guilt.
- going into withdrawals every 8 hours unless you had more dope to do. (And you usually didn’t)
- never attending any family event because you were too high or too sick.
- everyone eventually stopped inviting you to events. And even talking to you.
- everything was on your drug dealers time. If they said five hours. You’ll wait five hours in a car throwing up from being so sick.
- stealing everything worth value for dope. No matter how sentimental it was to you, or someone else.
- losing so much weight you can’t fit into any of your clothes.
- losing everything you’ve ever owned in your entire life.
- nobody believing a word you said, even if it was the truth.
- being a prisoner inside your own head.
- contemplating su***de every single day.
- never being scared to die, that’s what you wanted.
- trying to shut your brain up for even five minutes. It was worth that little time of peace.
- seeing your family cry for you to stop, only for you to leave and go get high. Because stopping wasn’t an option. It wasn’t possible.
- you’d do absolutely anything for more. And you did.
- everyone hating you no matter where you went, because they knew you were a drug addict.
- overdosing and going to get high right after.
- walking into rehab 100 pounds with clothes on and scared to death.
- giving your entire life away..
So if you’re ever curious like I was, please at least know the truth. Curiosity killed the cat, and it’ll kill you too” **
This is for anyone fighting or still fighting this horrible battle.