09/28/2020
I’m pregnant! With my second! I’m in my first trimester. And as excited as I was to see those 2 lines positive, it wasn’t my first time in the past 11 months of a positive pregnancy test, all the others followed by a negative blood test. And of course, also included negative home tests sporadically throughout. My body had been playing tricks with me. I had surgery, I was trying to balance my hormones. The longing to continue to grow my family never stopped but my hope was deem.
Something I found was missing from forums, mom blogs, Instagram is the struggle of a second pregnancy. My first born, was a surprise in the best way but was unplanned and seemingly an easy positive. However, my second pregnancy was a struggle. On one end you’re grateful to have your child, your baby, because you know so many other families are struggling for that ONE. So you feel a little selfish for feeling blue while struggling with your second, at least I did. And maybe the lack of openness of that has lead to a lack of community in the second infertility struggle.
I posted on my personal Instagram once on this, but I want to make it a point to work towards an open community here. Which is why I’m posting about my pregnancy in my first trimester. I’m pregnant now; and extremely excited for this little blueberry and being more pregnant won’t make it more real that my blood test was finally POSITIVE for me to post and share. Here to help normalize second pregnancy infertility and early pregnancy announcements.
