
09/24/2025
Some things are worth getting your heart broken.
Itโs been one month since we had to say goodbye to our baby girl. Itโs taken me this long to find the strength and be able to share.
Tulsi ๐โฅ๏ธ
Her soul: a sweetness so whole that it breathes
Losing you has been unbearable.
But the heartache, the pain, and the hole thatโs left is just a reminder of how much we loved.
Over the years, she gently rearranged me.
She stepped into me. Our hearts joined.
And not only on this plane of existenceโ
but forever bound together on a path โ crossing an endless threshold where the light bends in all directions.
and our bones. Yes our bones. They have grown together like the lateral roots of an old oak, far reaching, expansive, ever so quiet. Always together.
I carry her story and she carries mine. I love our story. 10 years. I really donโt even remember who I was before you, but I know Iโm a better version of myself because of your love.
Tulsi girl. You. Me.
Not just a likeness but a second self.
ancient and awake
dirt. No mud in between our toes.
Just the way we both like it.
My heart heavy with your shadow
Your *physical body no longer here for the touch of my hand, my millions of kisses and multiple stop whatever Iโm doing daily cuddles
but your Spirit is forever. i feel it always with me
a new kind of togetherness
unnameable and primordial,
yes. this new chapter is so very real.
I donโt know how to be without youโ
Iโm learning to begin again.
what I do know is that even though your time in your big brown eyed ~ softest butter belly form has changed, your essence still floods my thoughts and my actions ~ and this ~ my little baby girl is both a blessing, a healing balm, and an offering. Literally everything reminds me of you because you are my world.
oh Summer. our favorite Season. coming to an end. you closed this chapter just in time for all your favorite things so that you could return and rest easy in the big beautiful.
Thank you baby girl for a lifetime of love โค๏ธ