02/23/2026
I sure wish I could hold my babies a little longer!
I don’t want another baby.
I just wish I could go back and hold my first one all over again… just for a little while.
I wish I could sit with you as a newborn and really take you in not rushing, not overwhelmed, not running on empty. Just present. Just soaking in every tiny detail.
Back then, everything was so new to me. I was learning as I went, barely keeping up, doing my best to make it through each day. I didn’t realize how quickly those moments would slip past me.
Now I know.
Now I understand how fast it all changes… how quickly the tiny stages disappear.
And sometimes I wish I could go back not to change you, not to change anything…
but to love you then with the mother I’ve grown into now.