Addiction Treatment Services at CPP Behavioral Health

02/27/2026

02/25/2026

This is so VERY powerful. Please take the time to read.

I am a tattoo artist. I own a small shop.

Yesterday a woman walked in at 4 PM. No appointment. Asked if I could squeeze her in.

“What do you want?” I asked.

She showed me a photo on her phone. Numbers. Just numbers.

“392. On my wrist. Simple. Black. Can you do it now?”

I looked at her. She’d been crying. Eyes red. Hands shaking.

“Yeah, I can do it. But can I ask what 392 means?”

She sat down in my chair. Took a breath.

“It’s the number of days my daughter stayed clean before she overdosed. I found her yesterday. I want to remember she tried. That 392 days mattered.”

I didn’t know what to say. Just nodded. Started setting up.

She kept talking. Needed to talk.

“Everyone’s going to say she relapsed. That she failed. That addicts always relapse. But they won’t say she was sober for 392 days. That she went to meetings. Got a job. Started painting again. That she was my daughter again for 392 days. They’ll remember one day. The last day. But I’m going to remember 392.”

Her voice broke.

“This tattoo is proof those days existed. That she fought. That she almost made it.”

I finished the tattoo. Simple numbers. 392. On her wrist. Where she could see it every day.

She paid. Tipped way too much. Started to leave. Then turned back.

“Can I ask you something weird?”

“Anything,” I said.

“Can you keep that stencil? The 392? And if anyone ever comes in here struggling with addiction. Or losing someone to addiction. Can you offer to do this tattoo for free? Any number. However many days their person stayed clean. 10 days. 100 days. 1 day. I don’t care. Just so they know those days counted.”

She left before I could answer.

I kept the 392 stencil. Put it in a frame behind my counter. Wrote under it:

“Days of sobriety tattoos — always free. Any number. Because every day counts.”

I didn’t think anyone would take me up on it.

Three days later, a man came in. Saw the sign. Started crying.

“Can you do 1,279?”

“Absolutely. Who’s it for?”

“My brother. He was sober 1,279 days. Died in a car accident last week. Sober driver hit by a drunk driver. The irony is killing me. He fought so hard. And some stranger took him out.”

I did the tattoo for free. He hugged me for five minutes.

Word spread.

I’ve done 23 sobriety number tattoos in three weeks. Free. Every single one. 47 days. 6 days. 1,823 days. 2 days. One woman got “14 hours” tattooed.

“My son stayed clean for 14 hours before he relapsed and died. Everyone says 14 hours doesn’t count. But it does. He tried. For 14 hours he tried.”

I tattooed 14 hours on her shoulder. She sobbed the entire time.

When I finished, she looked at it and whispered, “Now everyone will know he tried.”

Yesterday someone came in and asked for “0 days.”

I was confused. “Zero?”

He nodded.

“My daughter never got clean. She tried to quit so many times. Went to rehab four times. But never made it past a few hours before using again. She died at 23. Everyone says she didn’t try. But she did. She tried so hard. Zero days sober but a million attempts. Can you tattoo 0 with a little infinity symbol?”

Because her attempts were infinite even if her days weren’t.

I cried while doing that tattoo. Zero with an infinity symbol. For a girl who never stopped trying even though she never succeeded.

A teenager came in two days ago. Seventeen years old. With his dad.

“Can you do 91 days? For me. I’m 91 days sober. I want to remember.”

I looked at his dad. Dad nodded.

“He asked for this. I’m proud of him.”

I did the tattoo. 91 on his forearm. When I finished, the kid stared at it.

“Now when I want to use, I’ll see this. I’ll remember I made it to 91. I can make it to 92.”

His dad paid. Tipped $200.

“You’re saving lives with ink,” he said. “Keep doing this.”

The kid comes back every 30 days. I add a small tally mark next to his 91. He’s up to 151 days now. Five tally marks. He’s going to make it.

The original woman came back yesterday. The 392 tattoo.

“I wanted to show you something,” she said.

She pulled up her sleeve. Another number.

“1.”

Just the number 1.

“What’s that for?” I asked.

She smiled through tears.

“One year since my daughter died. One year I’ve survived without her. Someone told me I should get a tattoo for my own sobriety. From grief. From giving up. I’ve been sober from ending my own life for one year. Because of this.”

She pointed to 392.

“Every time I wanted to give up, I looked at this. If she could fight for 392 days, I could fight for one more. So I’m marking my days now too. One year. 365 days of choosing to stay.”

I have a wall now. Photos of every sobriety number tattoo I’ve done. 47 tattoos in two months. Numbers ranging from 14 hours to 6,247 days.

Every single one free.

Every single one a story of someone who tried. Who fought. Who stayed clean for as long as they could. Some made it. Some didn’t.

But every number matters.

Because addiction isn’t about the day someone relapses. It’s about all the days they didn’t.

And those days deserve to be remembered. Marked. Honored.

I started this because a grieving mother asked me to remember 392 days. Now I’m remembering hundreds of days. Thousands of days. Marking them in ink on the skin of people who refuse to forget.

Every number tells me the same thing:

Trying counts. Fighting counts. Even if you lose, the fight counted.

I’m a tattoo artist. But these aren’t just tattoos. They’re monuments. Proof that someone tried. And in a world that only remembers the last day, I’m making sure we remember all the days before it.

01/27/2026

A Letter Every Son Needs to Read #73
W**d Is a Temporary High That Delivers a Stolen Future.

Dear Son,

Let me talk to you about w**d.
Not the way some school assemblies do, and not the way your friends hype it up. Just plainly.

W**d sells an illusion, and it sells it well.

It promises calm when your head is loud.
Confidence when you feel unsure.
Belonging when you feel out of place.

At your age, that offer sounds reasonable.
Life is intense.
Emotions come fast.
Pressure is everywhere.
Wanting something that takes the edge off doesn’t make you reckless, it makes you honest about how heavy growing up can feel.

But illusions work by showing you the feeling and hiding the cost.

W**d doesn’t solve anxiety. It postpones it.
It doesn’t give clarity. It delays it.
It doesn’t fix pain. It puts it on mute, temporarily.

And muted problems don’t disappear. They wait.

What w**d really does, slowly and quietly, is interfere with something precious you’re still building: your ability to sit with discomfort and think your way through it. At your age, your brain is still wiring judgment, motivation, and emotional regulation. That’s not a flaw, it’s a phase of growth. W**d steps into that process and says, “You don’t need to feel this. You don’t need to figure this out.”

That sounds kind. It isn’t.

Because every time you avoid discomfort chemically, you weaken the muscle that turns pressure into strength. You don’t notice it immediately. You still laugh. You still function. You still tell yourself you’re in control. The damage is subtle. It shows up later, as fog, lowered drive, emotional flatness, or a quiet dependence you didn’t plan on.

Here’s another illusion no one warns you about.

W**d pretends to make you deep.
Music sounds profound. Thoughts feel important. Conversations feel meaningful. But feeling deep is not the same as becoming deep. Depth comes from wrestling with ideas, sitting with questions, enduring boredom, and pushing through frustration. W**d makes you feel like you’ve arrived without doing the journey. And shortcuts always collect interest.

Watch the patterns around you.
Notice who needs w**d to relax.
Who needs it to sleep.
Who needs it to enjoy normal moments.

That’s not freedom. That’s adaptation to a crutch.
And here’s the part your friends won’t say out loud: w**d doesn’t steal ambition loudly, it negotiates it down. You stop reaching as far because “this is fine.” You stop feeling urgency because “tomorrow will do.” You don’t crash, you settle. And settling at your age is dangerous because you haven’t yet seen what you’re capable of becoming.

Let me be clear without exaggeration.
You are allowed to be stressed.
You are allowed to feel restless.
You are allowed to feel lost sometimes.

Those feelings are not bugs, they are signals. They push you to grow skills, build discipline, ask hard questions, and develop resilience. W**d interrupts that conversation between you and your future self.

This isn’t about morality. It’s about timing.

There are things you can experiment with later in life that are costly now because of who you are still becoming.

Right now, your greatest asset is your unfiltered mind, sharp, uncomfortable, curious, alive. Don’t numb it before it has finished building you.

Strength isn’t never needing relief.
Strength is learning how to regulate yourself without losing yourself.

If something promises peace but slowly takes your edge, your drive, or your clarity, it’s not helping you, it’s borrowing against your future.

Son.
Choose growth over escape.
Choose clarity over comfort.
Choose the harder road now so life doesn’t become harder later.

That’s not fear talking.
That’s foresight.
Don't trade your future for temporary high.