01/28/2025
This one of what I’ve done is the most me. From the jump I’ve felt connected to my primeval self- an untested statement to make in a modern society- easier said than done. The tested part of my theory is my experience of living in a disconnected society- our viruses, which rip through the population, are more in tune with connection than we are. ( I can hear my neighbour sharing my cough through my walls, though we haven’t interacted)
The other tested part is our medication, anxiety and depression stats: they are through the roof. As are our cancer stats. We’re becoming vaguely aware that our common chemicals have an association with the latter, yet we’re too connected to the affordability of the things we consume ( shampoo, clothing, etc) to become consumed with knowing too much about it. We’re becoming vaguely aware that diseases such as addiction and depression are connected to trauma and the inability to address trauma, yet we’re more comfortable as a population to self medicate privately or mask any malfunctioning by mistreating ourselves, those closest to us or subordinates who have no choice but to bear it. These are my experiential heuristics coupled with statistics.
The odd thing, as I sit typing this on my modern device, and dive deeper into my current pursuit of learning the language of code: I find it organizes my brain. My primitive, cavewoman brain. I accept things I do not like, such as paperwork and bureaucratic nonsense , as facts to be surmounted and dealt with.
But I do know I am one who runs with wolves.