04/30/2026
How do we know if working with plant or ancestral medicines is the right decision for us?
When I came into this work almost a decade ago now... I had no idea it existed. It popped into my reality out of, what seemed like, the blue. Although, I do remember at 19 stumping across an article that talked about Ayahuasca. I remember reading this experience someone had and thinking at that time... I want to experience that. And then it left my mind and I never thought on it again.
At 22 I suddenly had a desire to "experience psychic surgery" ...an odd choice of words for me at the time but it was what I wrote. This was before I was aware of much of what I know now. How I even knew to request that kind of calling out is beyond me.
And then at 23 I traveled outside of the U.S. for the first time landing in Thailand. A chain of events lead me from my first kambo ceremony to a week later my first 2 Ayahuasca ceremonies.
I was changed forever.
I can never go back.
Not that I would want to... but that year of my life changed the entire course of the rest of this existence I live.
How this all came about? I really have no idea... other than to thank God.
And over the last decade my life has been in dedication to these medicines and this work. To the greater forces that exist. And it's HARD WORK... the hardest work I could possibly ever imagine... it's this.
It has shifted every single aspect of my life- where I live, who my partner is, how I move through life, what my daily habits consist of, the awareness of my consciousness and mind, my connection to God/spirit/divine, how I eat, how I dream, how I communicate, and the list goes on and on.
This work is AMAZING... It is life changing... aaaaand, it is so challenging. It is the hardest thing I've ever done and continue to do.. and it seems to only get more challenging as the journey continues. It takes all of me... finding discipline and the deepest devotion I've ever had.
It's shaken my life. It's uprooted me in ever way. It's dismantled ever belief system I've ever held and asked me... "Really? Is this really real? Really true?" ...it's dug up my core traumas and then given me tests to ..morešš