04/02/2026
This is me age 13 in a Nutcracker performance. I am just on the cusp of dance becoming un-fun.
I'm starting to feel mild lower back niggles. I'm starting to question whether I needed to lose weight to be successful in dance (and life).
I was still happy and healthy and loved dancing because it was FUN to move.
I have regrets about many choices I made when I was dancing. One of them is not listening to the voice that said, "this isn't fun anymore and I want to stop".
It was a loud voice, and I suspect the intensity of my injuries were proportionate to the energy I used to silence it.
I wrote something new on Substack about the journey from here. When I stopped having fun.
It's called "What if 'Just Having Fun' is The Best Way to Prevent Injuries?"
Read here if you dig it: https://monvolkmar.substack.com/p/what-if-just-having-fun-is-the-best?r=p5zo9
Maybe there's something in here you can relate to if you've ever pushed yourself to continue on a path you didn't enjoy, ignored pain signals that led to injury, and just want permission to have fun again :)
Movement can and should bring joy.
See ya, gonna go try to do something fun.