07/05/2024
25 Years!!
Today marks the 25th anniversary of my quitting smoking. WOW!
July 5, 1999. Jon was 3 years old. My grandmother was dying of lung cancer.
I quit smoking when I was pregnant with Jon in 1995, but went back to it in 1996 when he was around 3 months old. I believe it was a night I was out with friends and just picked it right back up where I left off.
I was not a regular exerciser in those days. Okay, let’s be honest, aside from gymnastics as a child through 13 or 14 years old, and a short (and miserable) trial of running, I didn’t regularly exercise until I was in my mid-30s. My point is, smoking would have been a lot tougher had I been exercising then.
I was 26 years old when I quit smoking for good. It hasn’t been easy. There have been many times over the past 25 years where I have craved a cigarette, but as the time passed, those cravings did too. Being able to connect to the reason why I quit (my health so I could be around for my son - and then daughter), helped me through the tough times.
Today I was thinking about some of the things I’ve accomplished since I’ve quit smoking that I probably would not have been able to physically do if I had continued.
I’ve run 3 marathons, 17 half marathons, and numerous 10K and 5K races!
I’m so glad I stuck with it!
This year I decided to explore alcohol-free living. It’s been 6 months since I started on this journey and I’ve had 4 glasses of wine this entire year. Giving myself permission to explore being alcohol-free, while still being able to mindfully have a glass of wine has made all of the difference in the world. I’ve not been successful in the past for long because I always felt like I was being punished and that I “wasn’t allowed” to have wine/alcohol. This mindset - understanding what alcohol does to my body and then making choices that align with my goals - is kinder/gentler. The few times I have had a glass of wine this year I’ve really been able to see how it make me feel icky. The signs are subtle and I probably didn’t notice before because I thought that was just normal as I was aging. Abstaining from alcohol for a longer period of time has allowed me to see how good I really can feel and then make it easier to continue to make choices that align with my goals.
One of biggest things with quitting smoking (and also not drinking alcohol) is the fear of missing out or that your life will change into something you don’t want it to be. I was fearful - on both fronts. I was scared that I wouldn’t have any way to calm down or relax, or that I would never have fun again (yes, really!). I had to go back to that reason why stopping smoking and also not drinking wine daily was a priority…my health…and that’s what keeps me focused.
Celebrated by running with my girls this AM!