05/20/2022
May is Mental Health Awareness Month and I have been thinking lately about all of the little choices that go into "better" mental health.
This is a photo of a personal mental health project I have going on right now. I have a spot in the community garden here in town. Today is Friday, yesterday was Thursday. On Monday I bought a couple of items to put in the garden. I put them in yesterday, it was kind of foggy when I started working on it and it was raining while I was working.
I also bought a ground cover roll, it needed to be cut and I had to have scissors, had to have myself a little organized to have productive time. So, anyway I was prepared to work. And it was lovely, I was happy be puttering around getting my stuff planted.
The zucchini and yellow squash I planted a couple of weeks ago had started to come up and I put the ground cover over them, and slashed the cover with scissors to let the light and water through.
My friend, Aimee, said it looks like there are bodies under there. (Indeed.)
So, it's raining and I realize after getting all of the ground cover/weed preventing stuff down, I have put them on topside-down. And if it hadn't been raining, I never would have noticed. Because, yes, I am an experienced gardener but I don't know everything.
I could either toss up my hands and say, "screw it, enough of this," or keep going and fix the work I did backwards, or upside-down. So, I fixed it. And it was raining, just what my seedlings and seeds needed. I am not a big sun person, I would rather work in the rain.
I suppose what I am trying to say is that life is full of unexpected frustration. Places we need to keep carrying on, even when it is a little annoying for a delayed and greater good. And it feels good to work on something that will grow and change with the weather and the time. It feels good to get stuff growing early in the season. It is all a process.
At the end of the day, in these times, the garden is not about actual food. It's about community--seeing the gardeners grow stuff throughout the garden and maybe never seeing actual humans working there. Showing up and getting to know a place and those who stop by sometimes. It is a project where I can use my hands and build something that will be either good or maybe not so good at harvest time. Either way, it gets me out of the house, grounded in my body, looking away from my screens, out in the fresh air, waving at my neighbors.