03/13/2026
Today’s vision board…💯🙏🕺🧀🤷♀️
Idk about you guys, but I’m choosing the ducky for 58 mins… swirling around in the grand illusory trap of 5 sense reality - with its lore, its pain & all its glory - is really awesome when you re-immerse yourself in unconditional bliss for an eternity and realize it gets kinda boring and you actually want the pain and heart break and broken bones and snot and depth that comes with immortal life as a human on earth.
Wild statement, I know, lemme explain… 😆
For 3ish years I’ve been very indifferent, aloof, stuck, “depressed”… feeling trapped in samsara, the illusion, maya, constant lessons thru pain, attachment, trauma, fear, again & again, looping, cycling, trying through force and effort to get the fck off the hamster wheel and experience SOMETHING else. Some relief. Anything but this soulless matrix bulls*t.
It felt like there was no end in sight, 1 step forward 3 steps back, with some glimpses into higher energies, truths and potential realities around the corner, on the other side of this madness, suffering & agony, bordering on psychosis. S**t was real dark. True dark night of the soul era.
But I would get these glimpses - almost like poking my head up above water, before going back to drowning - of bliss, higher forms of love and truth… these things I was seeking, RUNNING towards, dreams I desired… but never holding, or attaining. Always seeming out of reach. “Maybe after I heal this thing, or accomplish this I’ll be ‘fixed’ or able to breathe…” but I always went back to drowning. Always. Getting worse & worse.
But the past month, so divinely timed with the shifts in astrology (fckn eclipse szn and other transits), EVERYTHING has changed.
The right teachings have been finding me at the right time.
Synchronicity has been unfolding more & more, with “you can’t make this s*t up” moments re entering my field… That alone could make me cry - the magic has returned, and I feel so alive.
What really shifted things was out of my control. I did not really “do” anything, but at the same time I did… I fckn let go. Of it ALL. The stories. The attachments. The fears - oh those pesky fears.
Continued in comments ⬇️