Prior to that, I thought I had life figured out. When I was pregnant, I prepped for breastfeeding my baby and for labor. I didn't think about how my life would change. As a married 30-something, my life was filled with work and lots of activities. I always kept busy. Sometimes working three different jobs because my passions led me to them and I had the time. I felt in control. There were no complications during labor. He latched on right away. It seemed to be smooth sailing. But after weeks of being home in my "new reality," I felt lonely, sad, and unprepared. I cried at my six week visit with my midwife and I had no idea why. I felt unprepared for all the emotional ups and downs. I also felt like I lost my community. Its easy for people to say they will love on your child. Its easy to fill a home with love when your baby is brand new but once the "new-ness" wears off. The silence interrupted by a baby crying creeps in, and I felt alone. One day, I decided that I couldn't possibly be the only woman who felt like this. I reached out to the online community of new mothers I began connecting with. We all felt the same. They were willing to share. And my podcast was born. You should take a listen: mamahoodpodcast.com
