05/25/2026
It all doesn't have to have a positive" I get it now" ending. Sometimes you're just crushed. The universe bulldozes you so you can get reorganized and none of it is pretty. And some of your people won't be able to tolerate it and we can't blame them for that. Your own internal system is what matters more anyway but it does hurt when people leave. However you certainly don't have to add the pressure of creating a happy ending or a positive framework for some social media story. People love to write about their success afterwards. Few share what's happening when it's actually happening. As if there's some shame in intense internal growth.The pressure of social media and marketing is unbelievable. It encourages us... no demands us... to betray ourselves and our stories. It's okay to say I don't know what's next....because then you are truly teachable and truly open to the Guidance of a higher intelligence within you and above you and around you. The Eastern traditions teach surrender. 12-Step teaches surrender. Western culture teaches you are a we**ie if you believe in opening yourself up to a higher intelligence and that no such thing really exists. Mainstream psychology calls this an external locus of control. So even your therapist won't support the idea of truly being guided by the spiritual energies within you and around you. And while psychedelic therapy might open the door, living that way takes commitment and practice. In the Western culture it is a lonely journey. And we know this more than ever looking at the statistics on the amount of medication our children are on and the amount of self-medication the adults are on. America is the most mental health medicated country on the globe. Especially the children. Rather than talk about it, we medicate. As if hard times, self-seeking, growth, mourning, struggle, stress.... are all bad things to be avoided at all costs. At all costs.
Find a place to show up in the middle of your struggle. Find people to work with who aren't afraid of the totality of the journey. Learn to cultivate the ability to work with the energies around us..... while sober. This takes enormous self-care, the ability to come home to yoursel