03/10/2025
I know these pictures seem super random but I think of this experience a lot and it reminds me of something I'm working through in my life right now... Showing up for people authentically and unconditionally.
We were on holiday and I know we were led to this cow pasture by something greater than us. We noticed that one of the cows was laying on its back and giving off an unsettling moan. We quickly realised she was stuck and wasn't able to get back up by herself.
At this point, there were a few cows grazing near her and one of the youngest ones came right up to the fence and looked at us as if to say "so you're not going to do anything?" (frame 2).
My heart sank and so many stories came flooding into my mind "what if we jump the fence?" "can we even push a cow back over?" "what if we get into trouble?" "what if, what if, what if!!!". The question paralysed us to the point where we just stood hopelessly watching the cow pass.
Moments before she took her last breath, all the cows slowly moved closer to her (frame 3). They stayed with her for a bit and when she let out her last moan, they all went back to grazing.
There are many lessons in this story...
- Surrendering to the flow of life = the cows moving with the knowingness that death is near
- Understanding the impermanence of life = the cows being able to go straight back to grazing after experiencing a death
The one lesson that resonates with me is 'doing the thing you know to do even when the mind makes up so many stories.'
My mind stops me from showing up for people in a vulnerable way because what if I look silly or what if it's not what they want.
All these 'what if's' are stopping me from deepening my connection with people because WHAT IF I JUST DO IT!
WHAT IF, that moment of vulnerability helps someone else feel seen in their experience...
Or helps someone not feel so alone
Or helps someone smile and feel joy for the first time that day
As best I can, I'm choosing to drop the story, saying 1,2,3, and just doing it! Knowing that this mindset shift is not for me, it's for the person on the receiving end!