27/04/2026
I have been silent for a while. Reflecting. Resting. Growing in silence. It comes in cycles, and I allow it.
But, even in the pause, when it looks like nothing is happening, even to myself, I have that quiet knowing that I will never stop wanting to grow. Learning, growing, ascending towards my own potential little by little...that has always been a thread running through all of it.
Maslow was a clever dude!
This slow reaching towards my own potential isn't for the purpose of external validation. It's not to prove myself to others or to impress. Validation is fantastic, but not at the price of ignoring your own needs or to falsely uphold a "love and light" attitude when truly you just need to feel the heaviness of the world when it wants to be felt.
Growth is not loud, it's not flashy, and to outsiders it might even be invisible.
But I know it's there.
It never leaves.
I know many of you also at times have the desire to isolate, the desire to withdraw from the obligations and expectations, the busy timetable - but often ignore that desire for various reasons. (This is not saying that I let my kid starve and lay on the couch binge watching Netflix for 3 weeks...although that's also OK, temporarily, if you’re not responsible for a little human being and have no other urgent responsibilies in your day-to-day.)
What I'm referring to here, is honoring the natural cycles of building, creating, maintaining and shedding without judgement. Allowing. The ebb and flow of life. Riding the waves when they come, and also, in the pause between waves, sitting on the board, soaking in the sun rays.... and enjoying that pause as well...without feeling the need to make waves while you wait.
At times the little voice inside, the mental chatter whispers "should you not be doing something?"..."Push a little more?".....
I plan on moving towards what I am capable of being. In the most authentic way possible and maintaining integrity.
I want to reach my potential, for myself, but more so for others. For the purpose of making an impact, because I know I can. The desire would not have been put in me, if it wasn't something to aspire towards, that can be reached. A desire that stems from a place that has nothing to do with people pleasing or keeping others comfortable, but everything to do with love, acceptance, compassion and the longing to show others it's OK to be YOU. The authentic YOU. It’s OK to be honest and to not have it all figured out, nobody has anyway, so stop pretending to eachother and yourselves.
So, rest when you feel the need to, if it feels like a healthy choice. So what if "they" judge. Decline that invite if you need your own space for a while. Set your boundaries when others don't know theirs.
You do you - just as long as you find more of you in the process.
MORE THAN ME