18/02/2025
REJECTION, RESENTMENT & FORGIVENESS 😭😭😭
Whoooou ukuxolela koyisa amakholwa ke mntane HASI🤔
Who am I to heal and forgive her after she resented me ndingeyiyo nenceku esondele esifubeni sika Abraham 🙄🙄, Bendinguban uk*mxolela when she rejected me for years ,nanikhona nikhombisana ngam nina ,ndingenazihlangu , nizozithatha ndizinxibile ezo bendizibolekile.....bxiiiim little did I know kanti ...I was being trained for my journey to know and understand intlobo zabantu deeply. I was not even recognized ngabo gazi lam as their family member kuba ndandiswele, ndililolo...You never noticed ubuhlungu be ntliziyo yam cause I'm funny, bubbly and talkative..I will die like that...ndizofa ndihleka mna kuba andivumi intlungu ithathe ubumna, enkosi Jovongcwele nge personality. Bambi babesithi you gonna be a nanny of ....oBani-bani wethu... that's where you belong ..Bambi they locked their gates angafun ndidlale nabantwana babo.. cause emehlweni abo ndandi ngekho kwizinga, they didn't know what God holds for my future..andibasoli nabo siphila kwi ilizwe that people in it are more judgmental than our Mkhululi🤗
I was sweet and tender with a cute innocent little face to be rejected, Abanye babe ndibuza are you a child of colour uyintoni kanye kanye😭😭... uphi umamakho ? your father is white? Yayithontelana imibuzo..andibasoli maarn wethu cause me myself I didn't know who I was nje, I was also totally confused like them too .Kaloku bendi different from their eyes in terms of my skin color...yayibuzisa kwaye yayikrokrisa ekuhlaleni.. Amen Mtrinity... I wish I knew who my father looked like at that time...One thing endandine mpendulo yayo kukuba I was illegitimate child who doesn't belong anywhere wethu, Kodwa endandiqophe ngayo kukwazi uba uSis Nokhaya my Granny ngu Mama wam as old as she was , she was born in 1912 ke phofu.. kodwa emehlweni am I saw a young preety woman that could be my Mama. The one I was introduced to never wanted to be part of my childhood.....sigh.😭😭😭uba awuyazi rejection thula..ibuhlungu ikwenza ungathembi namnye othi uyakuthanda, you take time to trust, the authenticity yalowo who comes in your territory...ukhupha amehlo 🙄🙄 okanye uthi run 🏃♀️🏃♀️🏃♀️ phambi kwexesha...Wena you always find petty mistakes in intimate relationships....tshin uzawuthini kaloku unesikroba esingavalekiyo nje.The moral of this piece..👉Bazali hlalani nentsana zenu noba utya inay nay inzala yakho mayibe nonxibelelwano nawe , mayilwazi uthando lwakho...I wanna tell you my story # Your experiences are mine too maarn. Jonga ndithetha ngam apha uzu ngaqumb"uqalekise, xolela, yamnkela ukuze ongumbumbi wakho akwenzele iinceba, xolela dade
# Suvuma isimo sakho sikuhlalise ekunxunguphaleni ayizujika ..embrace your sad moments funda nto kuzo.... # Phila ngenkani....🚶♀️🚶♀️ndiyebuya ndinixele uba uSis Ndumie my biological mother wathini k*m😭😭you don't wanna know...Whoooou undidlulisile uSmaki ezintweni eziwunxunguphalisayo umphefumlo..Hayi maarn wayendakha wayesazi uba ndizawubalapha ndihambe lendlela ndishumayele ubukhulu bakhe my own way ukuze kuphile my inner-self mna ndiphilise izimvu zakhe, ndithe kuwe ntanga ubangumkhovu wonxunguphalo
# Khanithi ukuthul'ebandleni💃💃💃Ndiyacamagusha maarn ku Smaki othe gqolo ukundibeka kufutshane nezibele zakhe...ungayi ngam ntanga kukude apho ndiyayo..
# Phila nge force...This is my story that's the reason I'm different from kuwe .iTheory ise zincwadini thina siphila enyanini # Suvuma Ntanga..ndiyeke ndenze endikuthunyiwe..inyani ayi fayikwa uyayiphila..@ Spokie📒📃🖋🖋📁