06/06/2021
Kindly keep me anonymous.
I once dated a guy where there was 8 years age gap, I was older than him. We dated it was love at a first sight I must say. As young as he was, he was very caring and loving. What amazed me was that he was taken by a young beautiful lady at his age. I once saw the their pictures together, damn mogirl was hot. I kept asking myself unending questions. What exactly men want?
FastTrack, let's talk about our relationship, benten and I. The life that we used to live was out of this world, the vibe wow. The guy was so romantic in a way that Mr Grey didn't match him. We will go to bed with our glasses of wine with snacks each and every night,mind you the guy was not financially stable hence he will go an extra mile to please me. He used to leave his bank card for me to use it but I couldn't since I was able to maintain myself. He would spend for my son without complaining. Breakfast in bed every time I slept at his place. Let's go down to bedroom 😅, he was a freak, adventurers. Our bedroom life was amazing, he would suck every part of my body😅you could see in his eyes that he was enjoying making love to me. I remember in December the 31st he wanted to do the cross over with me since he was in church, unfortunately I was with my family and he had no choice but to do it with me over the phone . His last words in that year "I wanna do the cross over with you, I mean you alone" he said. Oops mogirl was out just like that. Now it was him and myself and there was no longer a competition.
While dating the guy he knew that I have a boyfriend and the agreement was let us take one step at a time and if it works to our advantage then we will consider taking our so called relationship to the next level, then we will leave our partners. Since he left his girlfriend, he expected me to do the same thing. Guess what? I had to lie that I left my boyfriend too, then I continued dating them both and come I tell you, I was playing my cards wisely in a way that I could ask my boyfriend to take me to my bentens' apartment without him knowing and he would come later to pick me up.
It went on and on for a period of three years without being caught, up until my boyfriend decided to pay dowry for me and that's when I saw that my guy is serious. Fine the dowry was paid without my benten knowing. We continued to smesh it like no bodies business, the feeling of being banged by two guys sametime, the same day it was tremendously amazing. There was a time where my fiance wanted to finalize the lobola thing so we can be officially married. Then I had to leave my benten and he was so heart broken, I remember he cried and it broke my heart 💔but I had no choice but to make a decision that will benefit me in the long since I can't depend on bentens since I will be aging and there'll be time where he will seek his type.
Fine I was blocked by him everywhere and that was the end of us, yes I broke his heart and yes surely he will never forgive me for doing that to him. Time went I felt sick, fever I guess then I started to have terrible headache, I went to consult. I got tested and I was negative and I was given antibiotics to fight the flu. After a week I had swollen glance at the back of my head and my ears and I was like what's happening, yes I tested and I was negative, so what's the matter now . On a Monday morning I met two ladies from Department of health on the park station, they were giving people HIV oral kit test. I had to grab one quickly rushing to work. Later at home I took some tests guess what happened, I tested POSITIVE. I TOOK THE SECOND TEST, SAME RESULTS😭. I went back to the clinic the following day consoling myself that oral tests are not accurate and indeed they were accurate,I'm HIV+. Now I am scared for my fiance who is been faithful that I have infected him 😭. I started to ask God to save him, from that day I never slept with my fiance without a condom, I had to come up with a story that I accidentally being exposed to a blood so I need to go and the PEP treatment at the clinic. Fast forward he went to test and he was negative, then I waited for him to test again after 3 months indeed God was great he was negative. I pretended to test after my pep treatment and the results came back positive and guess what he accepted me and married me regardless my status that changed while I was with him due to my deeds 😭.
I know I have wronged my husband hence I am intended to take my secret to the grave.After all, I have forgiven myself and I am happily married.
