Hi my name is Zaida and I am a motivational speaker, an empath and an intuitive healer. I run support groups and help just about anyone using my extreme intuition. I am an ex-teacher, and I have found that apart from teaching curricula, I have indeed touched the lives of many whom have had the opportunity to be schooled by me. In fact, prior to heeding my calling, my learners kept on insisting tha
t I should quit the teaching arena and follow this chosen path. I thank them dearly, for giving me the much needed motivation at that time. Ever since I was little, I have experienced so many psychic events. I follow the Islamic faith, and hence all through my childhood, adolescence and adult life, I have suffered from anxiety and depression. I am often accused of being a hypochondriac and an anti-social being. I have sought medical assistance to find ‘cures’ and have exhaustively reviewed many self-help books. But these resources rendered no help to me and I only slumped deeper into an abyss of misery and isolation. I searched for answers, as to why I felt this way or that way or nothing at all at times. Many of my interpersonal relationships suffered. At the end of it all, this coupled with physical symptoms left me devastated and ‘beyond help,’ isolated and suicidal. I consulted many knowledgeable people within my own faith, the medical fraternity and even extending to just about anyone who I thought may be in a position to help me. I became desperate and sadly have encountered too many charlatans in my quest. I opened up myself to every and any possibility, imaginable and unimaginable. I wanted to know what was wrong with me! I was ready to believe any explanation. My quest for answers ignited a passion for greater understanding in human nature. Having the desire to delve into these questions gave me a deeper insight into my overall purpose in life and set me on a path to learn about the more profound and unknown aspects of my being. Often enough I am accused or being overly sensitive and utterly crazy! In case if anyone is wondering, I am on no mind altering medication, intoxicating substances, or believe or seek out controversial cults. I am not involved in the dark arts or any perverse rituals. I now have come to understand about dark energies and how they affected me. Being a physics educator, I should’ve opened my mind and applied the knowledge of energy and frequency in my daily life and more pertinently how it was affecting my equilibrium. I just never, connected the dots regarding this in my personal life or rather my problems. There were so many questions regarding ME – I ran from pillar to post and eventually when my life took a turn for the worse (which I consider in hindsight was the turning point in my life)- I finally found my answers that I searched for, for half my existence. I have always been unorthodox in my thinking and my lifestyle yet I maintain a moral code of ethics governed by the idea of love. I am a pariah and really not accepted within my own small community. I am accused of many things. Many clerics would find my talks controversial and I am branded notoriously. My self- worth was hammered down and I have been discriminated against for most of my life, because I do not fit the image of an “Ideal Muslim Indian woman! I constantly battled to fight for my convictions with just about everyone because I do not conform to a set of patriarchal/cultural/tradition/religious norms. My own healing began after a year of trauma (that eventually led me to be suicidal, and hospitalized for severe depression). I was broken down by society and the people I trusted and loved the most, the world had left me empty and in pieces. I didn’t know anything anymore, and I gave up hope and denounced everything from faith, to friends, to loved ones. What followed with my transformative spiritual journey… and it is proof enough…that there is always hope. It’s not what you do… (because I clearly didn’t know anything at the time) …but most importantly how you do it. I am spiritually inclined and I have learned to use my gift of clairsentience to help many. Sceptics insists the we don’t exist, and that we do things by just having an abundance of knowledge in all things emotional or we are just staking claim and making it all up to feel special. My clairsentience, allow me to direct people as to the cause of their problems, which may be, spiritual, emotional or medical in nature. My analysis is not generic but rather specific. I provide advice on clearing the energy pathways or strengthening the aura and if it’s medical I am able to direct a herbal solution. I can sense past traumas, curses etc. that might be currently active and causing issues. It’s taken me a long time to accept that many things are real. This entire concept of energy transference, demons, psychic attacks, spirits the effects of negative intent was all pseudoscience to me in the past. I have allowed myself to be open to the ideas and tenets that exist regarding the esoteric and ethereal realm. In doing so, I developed a more philosophical and reflective level of awareness about the workings of the universe. Being receptive to the different ideas that surround us, allowed me to uncover more answers about our realm. When we search for something beyond what we know, we will more than likely discover new ways and perspectives that we never before would have thought possible. As I reached further beyond my cultural biases, I learned that by staying within the constraints of my own tradition I was in fact limiting myself. I strongly advocate that by opening up ourselves to different viewpoints, it allows us to find alternative methods of healing and paves a way for us to evolve intellectually, emotionally and spiritually. I have had a natural inclination for the esoteric world. It fascinated me. I have found it to be an interesting dichotomy, but generally we don’t ever see any genuine proof of it. People believe the paranormal is made up. They scoff at things all supernatural. The reality of ‘jealousy’, psychic attacks, auras, energy pathways are now a reality for me. No books, or courses helped me understand my own clairsentience and healing side. For me, this meant years of having depression and anxiety but it gave me experiences and knowledge in what others go through. I trust what I feel when I do a reading. I no longer feel awkward about helping others. Energy is energy and energy does not lie. I have studied TCM and ancient healing modalities just so that I have proof by means of a formal qualification to back up my natural intuition of helping heal people who suffer genuine medical conditions. There is no judgement when dealing with people. I always felt out of place and like I never belonged. I was neither here nor there. I found the world to be dark and depressive. All I felt was loneliness, hurt and pain and this pain existed on every level even when there was no reason to feel like that. I now understand it is my empathic nature and I cannot bear to see suffering in any form. The people closest to me would think that I can be so easily fooled when it comes to people at large… Especially in my own personal life. I have attracted all the narcissists and sociopaths who have succeeded in making me a door mat. I am strong willed and intuitive by nature, so how come, people thought that they had me fooled? Simply, I have allowed them to get away with their deception. I never wanted to make them feel bad. So I always let things slide. People have a window to fool an Empath, somehow, I just know I am being lied to. I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt, especially in my personal life. I’ve experienced this ‘I just know feeling’ it’s a feeling, gut instinct. In spite of all the evidence to the contrary, I just know the truth. This truth came in handy and I eliminated a lot of my problems! Sadly, my just knowing things isn’t enough to convince others that I was right and they were wrong. Eventually time helped and ‘my truth’ became evident. I, naturally, get angry and frustrated when I sense the truth is being compromised. So here again, I was accused over being over sensitive or melodramatic. I am a soft and easy target for manipulation and debunkers to go after! My talks and support groups focus on my own healing. There was a “messed up”- before me and the now “enlightened” - after me. My methods, take on the format of “conversations with GOD” and “taking the leap of faith” all those sort of things. They address the spiritual aspect of healing. I am not a preacher of note, or any religious scholar. But the essence of spirituality is my focus. I believe in healing through your own belief system. I am not one for labels, so call it what you wish. I address issues on gender violence, abusive relationships, discovering yourself, forgiving yourself and most importantly self love. Today many of my clients, I find, are depressed or suicidal and merely just existing. I often hear the phrase “ I am numb! “ ; “I am lost” ; “I wish I could die” - I can relate to it. I can relate to all of it. More importantly I’ve been through it. I’ve been through the stigmas, the abuse and constantly being put down. I too, had self doubt, self hate, suffered the sleepless of nights, the well of tears, the myriad crazy thoughts. I kept thinking I am at fault. I am a mess, I am a wreck. I, too, was subjected to criticism. Every problem made me believe that I WAS the problem. My motto is simple… and it forms the basis of my healing.
“OWN YOUR TRUTH”
These are the reasons you tell yourself and then there are the real ones. We are great at lying to ourselves. We can convince ourselves of almost anything. That’s why you have to call yourself out! And that my dear friends… should be a note to yourself! As true healing begins only then…
I believe, that once you find your purpose, you will start feeling alive again. Find your heart beat and live your best.. Don't merely exist. Love and light,
Zaida
