29/12/2020
Honestly, I didn’t think my December would be so hard work wise. The stress levels have been through the roof. Working all night or well into the early morning consistently. Having to run around and manage the most difficult and unhelpful, demanding personalities, doing things I have never done and take course after course to learn, wearing hats I never thought would fit, having my work quadruple because of it in the busiest week of the year in my work anyway and then to have an emergency lockdown creep in and complicate the navigation of all these elements even more. Christmas Eve I stop working. 2nd January I start again. Kika had the biggest meltdown yesterday, just so done with being patient with mama and her busyness. My eldest crying in my arms last night because she’s missed me so much in the lead up to Christmas which is normally so much fun in our home. I am exhausted. So glad to never have to go through this again. The people that you work with mean everything. It has been a sharp learning curve. I learned the hard way this month to follow through on more intuitive leading and basic common sense. If something isn’t working, and it really isn’t working, let it go and find another way or pick up another thing. Life is too short and when you hold on, it’s you that carries the strain, it’s you that feels the burden. My darlings, wishing you a few days of letting it all go right now. 2020 hasn’t worked in so many ways. It’s time to find something new. But before we do, let’s catch a breath and release it all xx love to you all on this very unique Christmas Eve. It’s the simple things that sustain the magic ### (okay, and just to update — my diary is (finally) now complete and with a new printers so they arrive with me on 2nd January, so you can still order your copy on the link below. They have come out beautiful. My heart and soul are in them. Not only in the creating of them, but the producing of them, the process I have never had to be a part of until now. I have worked overtime to get these into the world. I hope they lift your spirits through 2021 ###x there is only a limited amount this year so everything is on a first orders basis) xx
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