19/03/2026
Talking is hard.
And I donāt mean talking about my feelings or emotions. I mean physically talking.
If you speak to me in person, or on the phone (good luck getting me to answer the phone), you might notice something slightly off with my speech. Or you might not.
What you donāt see is how much concentration and effort it takes just to form a sentence.
Finding the words is hard enough. Getting them out is another thing entirely.
Some days it honestly feels like Iām fighting against becoming nonverbal.
I used to use speech-to-text for almost everything I wrote.
These days I sometimes text my wifeā¦ who is sitting in the same room as me.
I donāt feel like itās getting more severe, but itās definitely getting more consistent.
Itās basically there all the time now.
Naturally the question isā¦ whatās causing it? And is it permanent?
It could be swelling in the brain.
It could be the tumour itself.
If itās either of those, then getting on top of it should help.
But it could also be damage from radiation, or brain necrosis and thatās the harder side of it to sit with.
Iāve got an MRI at the end of the month, so hopefully that gives us some answers.
Until then, when it comes to audio or videoā¦ itāll probably be radio silence from me.
As usual, thank you for all of your support during this difficult period š
