09/04/2026
Why the smile? I slept through the whole night 🥳
And suddenly, my world seems like a brighter place 🤣
Like so many women in their 40s experience, my sleeping has been terrible for a little while and it’s had a major effect on everything in my life.
I’ve been snapping wide awake between 2-4 every morning. I struggle to go back to sleep and will often toss and turn while I inevitably count down the minutes to my alarm goes off.
In the mornings I have early clients, the wake ups set the scene for a crap start to the day. After lying awake and ruminating, I just don’t want to get up for work. I’ve never been like this, previously waking up between 4.15/ 5am most days of the week and loving getting clients done first thing in the morning.
On the mornings I don’t have work but plan for a walk or bike ride, the thought of waking up to exercise after not sleeping for hours is unfathomable. I actually can’t think of anything less I want to do. And then that sets the scene for a day where I think I should be more disciplined with my training and wake ups. It just dawned on me that I have a valid reason for the struggles and lack of motivation I’ve been experiencing. And it’s real!!!
Broken sleep and being tired often becomes our norm during perimenopause. It’s no wonder that sleep depravation is used as a torture method- it truly is tortuous 🤣
For me, ongoing disrupted and broken sleep led to minimal enthusiasm for most things in life especially getting up in the mornings, low energy, general low mood, feeling overwhelmed easily, not motivated to do much on social media for work and a lack of drive to exercise during the day. It’s also harder to eat consistently and have the energy to food prep, so it has felt like a no win situation lately.
So what changed last night? I don’t know exactly. My day was essentially the same as every other. The only change was that I recently added an extra pump of estrogel in the am and changed my progesterone to daily. Maybe it’s stable hormones for the win???? Which makes sense really! 😆
Let’s hope tonight it’s two in a row 🤞🏻🤞🏻