06/05/2026
One day last week I cried for hours! 😭 Distraught & overcome by emotions, I was inconsolable with all of the above thoughts in my mind.
It’s normal to have worries & stress. On this morning though, every thought, feeling and fear came all at once- while some are based on genuine concerns, others are irrational and not my usual mindset. I know people deal with far worse, but in the midst of emotional overwhelm, everything seems massive.
I’m usually pretty even keeled in the mood department, but that day I wasn’t myself and didn’t know what was happening.
One day I was inconsolable with sadness. The next day- calmer. Such is the power of hormones.
I didn’t know whether to post this- I feel vulnerable doing so, but I’m sharing because I know I’m not the only woman in her 40s who sometimes feels crazy, doesn’t feel like herself anymore & is struggling with her emotions, sleep & energy. I know I’m not the only mum who questions the job she’s doing, the only human who is looking at the world with utter horror and helplessness or alone in experiencing life’s stresses.
For the last few months I’ve had a growing anxiety in my chest, a tightness and racing heart and shortness of breath- like I’m on the edge of a panic attack. Out of the blue and not brought on by thoughts. It happens randomly, sometimes all day. I thought it was just something happening in my body due to my hormones but in hindsight, maybe the last year has taken a toll & my fluctuating hormones have taken it to the next level.
I have felt like I’m going crazy! I know I’m not, but it’s hard to look from an objective perspective when you’re in the midst of little sleep and big feelings. We give teenagers a break due to their hormones running wild, maybe us perimenopausal women need a bit of a break too?
We definitely need to be kinder to ourselves & we also need to educate ourselves on the many symptoms at this age- physical AND mental due to our hormones. I’ve been learning about it to best help my clients (and myself) & it’s still knocking me on my a$s, even with knowledge!!!
I thought I was going crazy. I am not.
It’s perimenopause 😆
If you can relate, know you aren’t alone x