27/07/2025
I don’t have an Australian number - sorry if you bipped me birthday love over there 🙈
Not everyone gets to make it to 40. Working in funerals & a mortuary made me acutely aware death comes & then becomes us, at any age. Each birthday, each day actually, is not a given.
Oscillating hard between wanting to be of the world and far far away from the world. I didn’t know until the day before my birthday, what I’d actually be up for. Thank you to my beautiful fairy friends & for celebrating me and making me feel so special and for my family .collette & for trying to!
rememberings I want to write down, at this turning of time, before I forget again:
When I slow down I feel more.
I’m in a season of solitude, savour it.
Keep questioning what it really means to live well and to die wise.
Not all who wander are lost.
The death shapes the grief.
How we die matters.
My body loves to move and be moved - let it, love it and dance while you still have a body!
When I’m walking fast I’m thinking fast.
I am fair weather … I fair better in sunny weather!
Gentle everything, please and thanks.
Exisiting is enough.
I am not my job title.
Keep asking your dead friends and family for their guidance.
YOU ARE CARRIED.
Wee mantra : LET THEM … I haven’t read the book but resonate with the title. Kinda like Pema Chodron’s “How we live is how we die”.
Pattern recognition & calling bu****it on my excuses is wise use of my energy.
Everything takes longer than I realise.
Forgive my 15, 17, 23, 30 +++ year old self as many times as I need to.
People pleasing is poison.
Forgive yourself for saying YES when you really mean NO and vice versa. That default is deeeeeep.
You are smarter than your smart phone!!!!!
Go gently, you are a sensitive, sensual, permeable, miracle mash up of stars and clay and memory and wonder.
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Thank you so much to everyone for the birthday love. It came in so many forms and I’m truly grateful for everyone who bought me a cuppa { coff.ee/eringriffin } so I can keep pottering along on this research and remembering trip that I didn’t realise I needed. The privilege is not lost on me.