06/03/2021
It may be their first time seeing me. It may be their 18th time. They explain their diagnosis all the same.
Cancer.
They say Doctors are optimistic.
My heart drops. I hate that word. After graduating school, learning more than you would think, I hated that word even more.
I was able to understand what it meant from the “Nuts and bolts” aspect, but I already knew what it meant to them, to their families.
Cancer sucks.
This is my business account, so I am not going to use the profanity I would usually use, but you see where I am going with this.
As a RMT, some people just assume that my clients are numbers, but to most of my clients, they know me as Kat. Not Katrina. It goes both ways, I know them from their medical history, but also as their truest selves. They have trusted me with more than just their bodies on a table, attempting to take away that pain that's been going on for weeks…I know their home life. I know their favourite kind of music, their favourite kind of adult beverage. I know what their spouse does to p**s them off. I know what their spouse does to make them smile everyday*.
I know how stressful/fulfilling/boring their jobs are.
I look forward to seeing their progress, in whichever way it is. From posture, to pain relief, to home life. I truly do believe that I am a *very minimal* supporter of their life.
So when I find out a client has passed away, I am devastated. I have tried my best to continue a safe space, a funny space, an escape from the world, and they are gone.
They are all of those things listed above, and so much more. I will miss them being in my schedule. I will miss their smiles. I will miss them going on about their spouse cooking. I will miss them telling me about their favourite child, and never admitting they are wrong. I will miss them telling me that they have stretched even though, let's be honest..they haven’t stretched.
Loss is hard. The family. The friends, and the “supporters”.
I will continue to support, encourage, motivate every single client I have. You can get through whatever you are going through. I am here. I am always here..
Not just to make you cry whilst I battle your body aches
