Rusty Jacks Healing

08/18/2025

How does the voice in your mind sound? Are you kind to yourself? Does it comfort you the way you comfort others? Does it show compassion when you aren’t perfect?
How we self talk affects our daily well being and many don’t even notice their “inside” voice. Yet our sub and supra conscious is noticing. It is internalizing.
When you notice yourself being negative, ask yourself how you would speak to a loved one in the same situation. How would you support and comfort someone.
We can grow to be our own cheerleaders simply by remembering the people who came before us who love(d)and support(ed) us. Honor them by treating their loved one with love 💕

07/19/2025

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“Wolves and women have much in common.
Both share a wild spirit.

Women and wolves are instinctual creatures, able to sense the unseen.

They are loyal, protective of their packs and their pups.

They are wild and beautiful.

Both have been hunted and captured.

Even in captivity, one can see in the eyes of a woman, or a wolf, the longing to run free, and the determination that should the opportunity arise, whoosh, they will be gone."

~ Clarissa Pinkola Estés, PhD

Art: Lucy Campbell, “She Contains Multitudes”
Lucy Campbell

06/23/2025

2017 I came across this Red Tailed Hawk. We stood in silence for 12 minutes just staring at each other. When I left I felt like we had had a silent conversation. She has been my Spirit Animal ever since.
Anyone who knows me can attest that birds have always made me feel uneasy. Meeting this one changed that. I have since been able to face all the things in me that have made me uneasy. All the pain, trauma and negativity. I am forever grateful for this moment. One moment can change your path completely and forever, if you let it.
Pay attention. Today might be that day for you ❤️

06/22/2025

The pause before the message is probably the most important step. How often are we unaware of our guides, the signs, the messages? In our society, we rarely have time for anything other than “tasks”. Although important, we did not choose life here for tasks. We chose it for growth, for lessons, for experiences.
Take some time daily to be still. To be quiet. To be aware.
You’ll be surprised at what you learn, what you hear, what you see.
For what is life if you cannot savour the delicious moments.

The One Who Speaks with Stones
They say the Blue Heron was not born from egg or sky—but carved from river rock by the first hands of the land. He rose when the world needed a listener, not a voice.
By the water’s edge, he speaks with stones—the old ones who remember when the forest was still a whisper. He learns their quiet language, waits through seasons, never rushing answers. The wind forgets, but the stones do not. And so, neither does he.
The elders say he appears when a heart is heavy and silence is needed more than sound. He does not offer comfort. He offers truth—the kind that arrives slow, like dawn through fog.
He walks the shoreline between worlds: land and water, memory and becoming.
He is not a messenger. He is the pause before the message.
And in that stillness, healing begins.
We call him T’łikwaan — He Who Listens to What Is Buried.

06/21/2025

Happy Indigenous Peoples Day!

06/11/2025

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“The Goddess doesn't enter us from outside; she emerges from deep within. She is not held back by what happened in the past. She is conceived in consciousness, born in love, and nurtured by higher thinking. She is integrity and value, created and sustained by the hard work of personal growth and the discipline of a life lived actively in hope.”

~ Marianne Williamson

Art: Maartje Van Dokkum
Mary Feywood

06/09/2025

Before Persephone descended, before Demeter wept, there was Lilith—who would not kneel.

She wasn’t stolen.
She left.
She didn’t ask for permission.
She refused to be less.

Lilith is the original exile.
The first woman to say,
“I will not lie beneath you.”
Not in the garden.
Not in the bedroom.
Not in life.

And for that, she was cast out.
Not fallen—but freed.

Where Persephone shows us the descent,
and Demeter shows us the grief,
Lilith shows us the rebellion.
The holy rage.
The sacred exit.
The refusal to be small, sweet, or saved.

She is the untamed feminine.
The sexual self before shame.
The woman who chooses herself, even if it costs her everything.

In my work, I meet Lilith in every woman who comes to reclaim her body—
who says, “No more pretending,”
who walks out of a life built on pleasing others,
and into one built on truth, desire, and choice.

Lilith doesn’t ask you to be palatable.
She asks you to be real.

To feel what you feel.
To want what you want.
To know what you know.

She is the part of you
that would rather be alone than abandoned by yourself.

And that?
That is where sovereignty begins.

I hope there is something here for you.
Loving you from here,
Pamela Madsen❤️❤️❤️❤️

06/04/2025

If you’re someone who deeply self-reflects, you need to be very aware of something crucial: most people don't. They project. This is an incredibly important awareness to cultivate because you might mistakenly self-reflect on their projections, thinking that they, too, are engaging in honest introspection. You can easily get lost in this confusing loop of self-questioning, often based on people gaslighting you or subtly inducing self-doubt, simply because they are unwilling or unable to turn the mirror toward themselves.

So, before you consider what someone else says to you about yourself, first of all, be absolutely sure that it comes from a person who is not only able to take accountability for themselves, but is also genuinely in the state of mind of trying to understand you, rather than judge. Understand that many people are not willing to confront their own flaws or turn the mirror to themselves. They don't care if they induce self-doubt and mental fog in you, as long as it helps them get away from their own wrong-doing. Not to forget those who know you are someone who self-reflects, and are simply using that very quality against you to manipulate you.

Self-awareness is beautiful, a powerful tool for personal growth. But that being said, external awareness—awareness of others' patterns and intentions—is just as important, if not more so, in order not to fall into other people's toxic traps. This commitment to truth, even when uncomfortable, allows you to live with unfiltered emotions and clarity.

06/04/2025

Hey everyone! I took a small hiatus to ground and integrate after Peru. We have also moved so I’ve been working on a new space for healing. Rusty Jacks is up and running again. As of June 16th, I’ll be booking clients again. If it’s been on your mind to make some changes, or if you are feeling like you want to reconnect, reach out and let’s get together 🙏🏼💕

05/05/2024

"Imagine that as a child you were issued a large backpack to wear at all times. At first you didn’t know what it was for, but then the adults around you started putting rocks in it that you then obediently carried around. After a while you followed their example and began to put rocks in there yourself. Over time, some of the rocks disappeared, but most didn’t, and by now that pack’s really, really heavy.

You often pull out some of the rocks and look at them. They don’t make you happy. In fact they make you miserable. Some at the bottom you never pull out—you might not even remember you have them–but still you carry them. This seems inexplicable. Why would anyone voluntarily bear such a burden?

Unfortunately these rocks are not chunks of shale or granite or sandstone. Those would be easy to get rid of! Instead they are bits of residual resentment, hatred, anger, guilt, and shame from injuries or injustices or mistakes you can’t or won’t or haven’t tried to let go of. The backpack is your mind; the weight of the load burdens not your back but your soul.

If the pack’s stuffed full, it’ll take some mental elbow grease to do a good spring cleaning, but trust me, it’s worth it for the sunlight that will pour into your life. After that, there’ll be some ongoing maintenance to keep your pack light and your steps jaunty. Yes, there’ll be surprises. Rocks that you’ll swear you never picked up will somehow get in that backpack, and a few rocks will keep reappearing even after you put them down and down again. Still the effort’s worth it.

So how to get rid of these rocks? The first step is to realize that anger, hatred, resentment, guilt, and shame are not just weight, they’re toxic, poisonous to a healthy life. They cloud your judgement; they sap your attention and energy. They lead to bitterness, depression and despair. If you feed these toxic emotions, the rocks will grow until they’re all you have left. At its most basic, carrying around these rocks is a form of self-harm.

Instead when these emotions arise, acknowledge them, learn from them. Take action if appropriate. And then let them go. This doesn’t mean you should allow people who’ve injured you to do so again. But caution, wisdom, and courage prevent injury better than anger and resentment."~

~Karen Lynn Allen

04/13/2024

Perhaps if you stop pouring your depth into people too shallow to absorb it, you will stop finding yourself in puddles on the floor 🙏🏼❤️
-Liz Fair

03/25/2024

Thought of the day

The same boiling water will make an egg hard as it makes a potato soft. It’s not the environment that dictates who you are. It’s how you react to it ❤️