11/12/2023
Just a little dear diary.
I’m really struggling with sticking to plan at the minute. I have for weeks. I have made it no secret because I’m a real human and this was my life for YEARS before conquering plan and losing 6 stone to have my precious IVF baby.
If I’m gonna be dead honest… I’m hearing a lot of “you’ve just had a baby.. be kind to yourself” …… and you’re right- I absolutely have. But stuffing my face with takeaways and chocolate IS NOT BEING KIND TO MYSELF and it’s not only effecting my weight, my health, my pcos, my mindset but it’s massively effecting my mental health and happiness right now.
I have suffered with being in a binge > restrict > regret > repeat cycle for YEARS and the difference is - now I recognise it. I know how to fix it and it’s driving me mad that I just can’t do it right now.
The thing is with ANY diet / life style change - what ever the heck we want to call a calorie deficit is…. YOU HAVE TO BE READY. Your heads gotta be 100 in the game. And my head is currently in 2827 different places all at once at the minute. I have SO many plates spinning…. From having a 6 month baby, to working back to working 36 hrs a week, to never ending house work and washing, to Christmas stress and trying to do festive stuff with my ever growing beautiful bab, maintain a social life, cook healthy and stay sane…. Is proven difficult.
I’ve decided to chill out. For so long every Monday that rolls round I’ve been like right back to 1b tomorrow and it’s just not working for me right now (and the step you can stick to is always the one that’s going to work!!)
So tomorrow I’ve decided to go shopping and get in some healthy step 3 staple foods. Im not going to obsess .. I’m just going to get back to what my maintaining life looked like before hallie and ivf and then see how I’m feeling in the NY - if anything I need to try and focus on my feeling towards food and healthier choices because at the minute - every hard busy day is like …. Let’s get a takeaway! And I’ve been in that trap before & I can tell you now… they are gross. Nice for the moment. Regret for the night. So here’s my update. Happy Monday. We go again. Story of my life. Peace ✌🏻 😂