30/12/2019
Reiki and Fear and Power of Healing
I have always wanted to share this but was never sure if its a story on Reiki? or a story on how the Fear in us paralyze us so much that we just march on the spot and unable to move forward?
I took up Reiki Level 2 last year and had not really tried it out on anyone yet. Then, I was working with this auntie and was sharing with her the wonderful part of Reiki Level 2 which I could do remote healing. She was curious and asked me to do 1 session for her as she was having aching soles.
I did a remote Reiki session for her that and was quite disturbed by what I saw. I shared the visuals with her only a few days later when we were working together side by side. I told her, I saw an image of her, holding a knife infront of her in a defensive position. She had a very scared expression and seemed to be a bundle of nerves. She seemed to be waiting for someone to attack her. I wasnt too sure how she would react to what I told her.
When I finished and looked at her, she was crying badly. Her tears were flowing down non-stop. She finally shared her story of why she doesnt dare to be alone in the office and so easily frightened.
It went all the way back when she was 18 and and engaged. During a company trip to Genting, she saw a blurred image of her fiance standing at 1 corner of the restaurant. This happened a few times during the trip and she finally fell sick and came back to Singapore first. She then found out her fiance had passed away in a motocycle accident and the pillion was a woman whom he was having an affair with.
Everything traumatised her so much that her sickness became worse. She constantly saw an image of her fiance near her. After a couple of years of of visiting different mediums, he finally disappeared or she stopped be able to see him. Since then, she has always been in constant fear of being alone, being in the dark.
She told me she even had an abortion for him. I just stood by her and let her cry it all out. She asked why did he kept appearing to her. I did some check and told her that he felt guilt and just wanted to apologise to her. For whatever that he has done and regretted it. For hurting her. He just wanted to say sorry. She finally stopped crying after quite a while.
I cant imagine being her, carrying it for more than 40 years. The amount of pain she had in her.
Then, I was not too sure if I managed to help her in anyway besides standing beside her while she cried. Then along my healing journey, I realised I did.
This is why I do what I do. We all need healing over and over again, no matter how many times we have done it. Just like an onion, we have so many layers. As we heal each layer, we go deeper and is able to access self. Which is why, I am a big believer of self-healing. So we can do our own self healing.
