Angel In Hawaii

01/05/2026

01/02/2026

It’s a lot of fu***ng grief!

01/01/2026

Why the “Devil’s Advocate” Is Almost Never Neutral.

At first, it sounds intelligent.

Measured.
Balanced.
Reasonable.

They don’t “take sides.”
They just want nuance.
They want to “look at both perspectives.”

And if you care about truth, complexity, and fairness, you probably trusted them.

Until you noticed the pattern.

They never challenge power.
They never question the system.
They never interrogate what caused the harm.

They only question you.

Your tone.
Your reaction.
Your timing.
Your “objectivity.”

Here’s the truth most people never name:

False neutrality is not unbiased — it’s loyalty to whatever already has power.

When harm is named and someone responds with
“Let’s be fair,”
“Both sides matter,”
or “It’s more complicated than that,”

the focus quietly shifts.

Away from impact.
Away from accountability.
Away from what actually happened.

And onto how it was said.
How it landed.
Whether it was framed gently enough to be tolerated.

You weren’t being debated.

You were being diluted.

From a psychological lens, this is avoidance disguised as intellect.
From a relational lens, it’s harmony chosen over honesty.
From a nervous-system lens, it’s erasure.

Because your body felt it immediately.

That drop in your stomach.
That tightening in your chest.
That moment where your lived reality became “just a perspective.”

Devil’s advocacy in these moments isn’t about understanding.

It’s about stalling.

It slows momentum.
Blurs responsibility.
Creates the appearance of depth — without requiring change.

And the cruel twist?

They often present themselves as more evolved than you.

Calmer.
Less emotional.
More reasonable.

Which quietly casts you as reactive, biased, or unstable.

But notice this:

They never risk saying,
“This was wrong.”
“This caused harm.”
“This needs to change.”

Because conviction costs safety.

Neutrality doesn’t.

So if your clarity was met with calls for balance…
If your truth was softened into “both sides”…
If your experience was treated like a debate topic instead of reality…

hear this clearly:

You weren’t extreme.
You weren’t lacking nuance.
You weren’t being unreasonable.

You were standing in reality —
and encountering people who needed ambiguity
to avoid responsibility.

And once you see that, something settles.

You stop explaining.
You stop justifying.
You stop mistaking evasion for intelligence.

Because neutrality that only appears when harm is named
is not wisdom.

It’s allegiance to comfort.

And you’re no longer willing
to help reality disappear.

12/31/2025

No more Love and Light for me! Truth only now!
This used to be my life for years, Every New Year’s morning I would be at the ocean offering free sunrise healings to connect to Creator and start the new year off in Love and Light, and because I wanted to help others start their new timeline with Creator, not with chaos, not with distraction, and with healing because I knew what it meant to rise, and be connected to God- So I thought!!!!!
I lived this way year after year. I poured my heart into healing, into forgiveness, into showing up as the responsible woman, the responsible mother, the dependable woman, the soft place for others to land in my healing buisness for the last 20yrs from 2006.

From 2014- I became even more devoted my entire life of Service to my daughter, to healing, to God, and to being there for others.

I haven’t dated or been intimate with anybody since 2014.

I was completely devoted to my service on this earth for God and my purpose, and to be there to support my daughter who was becoming an adult.

I haven’t chase pleasures or distractions.

I never took a vacation- only traveled to learn from Indigenous ones, and learn thier teachings.

And TODAY —I let that version of me go!

Not the love.

Not the devotion.

Not the purity.

But the part of me that believed I had to be perfect in order to be worthy.

The part of me that thought forgiveness meant silence.

The part of me that kept swallowing harm because I believed it was “spiritual” to rise above it.

Today, I speak.

I will speak of the darkness I lived through.

I will speak of the all betrayals I have been through.

I will speak of the manipulations I endured.

I speak of the truth that I kept hidden behind years of offering light.

I will no longer perform perfection and hide in love and light.

I will no longer pretend that the shadows weren’t there.

I will no longer hold my tongue in the name of “being spiritual love and light.”

I STAND TALL NOW!

Aligned with Creator God.

Rooted in the Holy Spirit.

Walking with Yeshua Jesus.

And I have now learned SILENCE keeps God out! And allows Darkness to keep coming around!

And now from this place, I face everything I once swallowed.

I speak on what hides in the dark.

And I speak- to finally be FREE.

This is the last time I will carry what others did in silence.

A new chapter starts here!

In the name of God
Amen

12/31/2025

12/30/2025

This was my life for years-this post from 2017 is just one example. Every New Year’s morning I would be at the ocean offering free sunrise healings. I did it because I wanted to help people start their new timeline with the Creator, not with chaos, not with distraction, and with healing because I knew what it meant to rise, and be connected to God- So I thought!!!!!
I lived this way year after year. I poured my heart into healing, into forgiveness, into showing up as the responsible woman, the responsible mother, the dependable woman, the soft place for others to land.

From 2014- I devoted my entire life to my daughter, to healing, to God, and to being there for others.

I haven’t dated or been intimate with anybody.

I was devoted to my service on this earth for God and to be there to support my daughter who was becoming an adult.

I haven’t chase pleasures or distractions.

I never took a vacation- only traveled to learn from Indigenous ones.

And TODAY —I let that version of me go!

Not the love.

Not the devotion.

Not the purity.

But the part of me that believed I had to be perfect in order to be worthy.

The part of me that thought forgiveness meant silence.

The part of me that kept swallowing harm because I believed it was “spiritual” to rise above it.

Today, I speak.

I will speak of the darkness I lived through.

I will speak of the all betrayals I have been through.

I will speak of the manipulations I endured.

I speak of the truth that I kept hidden behind years of offering light.

I will no longer perform perfection and hide in love and light.

I will no longer pretend that the shadows weren’t there.

I will no longer hold my tongue in the name of “being spiritual love and light.”

I STAND TALL NOW!

Aligned with Creator God.

Rooted in the Holy Spirit.

Walking with Yeshua Jesus.

And I have now learned SILENCE keeps God out! And allows Darkness to keep coming around!

And now from this place, I face everything I once swallowed.

I shine light on what once hid in the dark.

And I speak- to finally be FREE.

This is the last time I will carry what others did in silence.

A new chapter starts here!

In the name of God
Amen

12/30/2025