04/06/2024
SURRENDER
That is the what these past 9 months have been for me. A deep surrender into life and how it is choosing to move through me.
Creating life again at this phase of my life was not what I had planned. I was just starting to feel like I was getting into a groove 2 years postpartum. I had plans. And well, as is often the case, life itself had its own plans.
At first I resisted, I was rigid. I didn’t want to think about it in the way that fear can take over and make you feel numb because you don’t want to fully feel what is truly manifesting in the moment. This will be hard for some to hear and what a conundrum it felt for me. Working with women whose only wish is to be a mother and remembering how I also felt when I was in that spot. That deep desire and longing, yet here I was not fully accepting and honoring this miracle of life.
Once I let myself fully feel ALL the emotions without judging them is when I started to thaw, to open, to let go, to accept this reality, and to trust that this is what was meant for me.
This little miracle of life chose me to come into this world.
What a divine manifestation of life.
So here I am, at 45 years of age, about to birth my third child into this world.
Surrendering into the unknown, into the mess, into the fear, into the joy, into the unconditional love that is motherhood.
Deeply humbled by life and open to receiving what is ahead.
